Continuing with the challenge that's running for n years now, here's a letter for a never-my-ex but an equally important person that's been a part of my life for about 10 effing years (~1/3 of my fucking life).
I just don't know what to say to my exes but congratulations on having their cute families. There are no hangups whatsoever. It'll be a boring 2-sentence letter. On the other hand, I'm too old to have crushes, so I picked this guy to write to.
PS. You are the only exception, my lovely boyfriend. You are my home and my bliss. I wish to be with you forever. I love you, sweet.
Hey, you,
Don't you miss writing online? I've never erased our e-mails; once in a while I check on them and brood about why we can never be friends now. Haha, typical.
On that note, I know we are never for each other. Thinking back, I'm relieved that we did not have a chance to be together as an official couple. We would destroy each other. I want a handful of things in a relationship that I know you won't give, and of course it's the same for you. I remembered when we tried to show our feelings to each other - I told you I liked you; you responded with a "Thank you". You were always just a text away - you were practically my diary, but I did not see the value of time then. I did not responded well with your love language and I guess neither did you with mine. We both felt rejected even though it's not the case at all.
Plus, time's a bitch for both of us. I was almost always ready to have a man in my life, and you never were. I don't want to call you my rebound, but we were always in touch during my 'breaks'. Anyway I was also there when you had your first break up, so.
Still, it's sad knowing that 1/3 of my life, you were a constant, and now you're not.
Anyway, congratulations for us on finding our perfect partners! I'm so happy we're both happy.
You will always be the kindest, most saintly person I have ever met.
Love,
Your asymptote
Hey to you too,
ReplyDeleteWill always treasure those emails and will keep them (plus 1TB is too much for a lifetime 🤣).
Back then, i guess "thank you" were the only words i could say as i was not "prepared". 😂
Time was never on our side in this universe. 😮💨 (e.g. 5 years to reply 🤣🤣)
Will always be happy for you too though. 🙂
The best I could only think of is that maybe in a parallel universe, we are no longer asymptotes. 😅
I may no longer be a constant since n years but i will always care from deepest within.
Had to write back cos i guess subconscious is messing with me as you and other friends occasionally visit me in my dreams.
Everyone deserves peace of mind. 🏞
Thank you for all the kind words above.
Cheers to us with our perfect partners and furbaby / baby. 😁 🥤
Love,
One Fb friend