Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

To those whom I have wronged, Apologies for hurting you with my big mouth. Sometimes, my mouth is faster than my brain. I didn't mean it, truly. Hoping this can simmer down things - when I talk, I am talking for myself. I am not villifying anyone, I just wish everything is right for myself, and with this selfish thinking, I did not contemplate that I was offending people, not until now. Sorry. Apologies for my anger bursts. I could not handle the stress and pressure then, and I'm sorry you had to deal with me. I am striving to be better now, anger-wise.

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

 After n years, I continue this challenge with day 12. 

It's not easy to think about this person, because we need a therapy session to be able to be honest about it.

For now, let's try the safe answer: myself for letting go of healthy habits.

When I started trailing off the 'right path', I thought that because I was married already, I did not need to be as fit. Well, it happened; fitness went straight out of the building. Now that I know this is not a good way of looking at things, it's so hard to lose the fats away! Damn, so hard unlike before. 

That's why I hate myself. 

Time to bring my old fit self back because I rely heavily on it, apparently.

Dates at San Pablo every week: Pre-ECQ

I'm from Batangas, my boyfriend's from Cavite, so every week, we're meeting half way for dates. One of the best towns that we've visited is San Pablo. From its nature spots to coffee shops to restaurants, the place is worth the drive (also because I'm not the one who's driving hehe).



Sampaloc Lake

For one, Johnny's in love with Sampaloc Lake. I mean, look at these unfiltered shots:

It's calm, it's designed to be a tourist spot, and most especially, it's an alive lake. We saw a turtle twice, birds were always a flying around, and there were fishermen. It's lovely in the morning and romantic during sunsets.



Casa San Pablo

I will be rebirthed as a rich kid and I will have my wedding here.

Or we could just have coffee during this lifetime. 

I've fallen to another full cycle of procrastination and escaping reality again.

A glimpse of a college instructor's Christmas

Starting December 1, most people were already preparing for Christmas. Malls were getting busier, traffic was becoming heavier as the spirit of giving became mandatory for some.

Example of this events where giving is required are the Kris Kringle and Exchange Gifts. As adults, most exchange gifts are accompanied by a wish list - we don't want to receive any useless stuff. 

My wish list contained things that I want to buy but I don't have time to do so:

• foot socks
• flash drive
• mini SD
• BB cream

Those things are for personal use. I was thinking about what I want, what I can use. That's why I was surprised when I saw what my other co-instructors listed. 

At least 3 of them listed whiteboard markers and ink.

They asked for the supplies that should be given by the company.


What does that say about the Philippine education?

1. Supplies are not enough, or are not distributed well. 2/3 of those who wished for markers were lecturers: term for part-time instructors. They only work during the weekends, thus they cannot ask for markers in the Dean's office because of its office hours. This can be easily remedied by allocating at least 2 markers for every lecturer per week. But they don't. That's why I initially concluded that supplies aren't enough.


* I'm a full-time instructor and I ask for 2 markers a week. However, I bought refiilable markers and ink because most of the time, 2 isn't enough. I taught Math and a marker can be used up in one session only. In my opinion, 5 markers per instructor is a good conservative estimate for a smooth and interactive Math class.

2. Most of the instructors are passionate about teaching, that they even wish to receive things that they can use to further improve their way of educating student. It's good to have this burning passion, and I plead the higher ups anywhere, to please not exploit it. Please do not put their flames out by not giving them proper incentives, working conditions, and at the very least, supplies.